Saturday, October 19, 2013

Entry 8

     Hey readers! Before we get into the long awaited update to Phoenix: The Time Keeper, lets begin with a little introduction that includes why I've been so late with the updating.  Okay, I guess it's kind of an excuse...but I don't care.  I've been dealing with a lot of stress.  It starts with homelessness, going to college, and family issues.  Things have been insane lately.  
     For the past year I've been homeless, jumping from friend to friend and finally at my worst living in my truck for 3 months.  I wont get into details but I've seen some pretty insane crap around me since I was homeless.  Some of that stuff I don't know if I'll ever recover from.  I can give you one example that's probably just more of an anxiety causer: 
     I was sleeping in my moms truck one night and at 12am I heard a weird sound against the window as if someone where pulling a cats tail or lighting it on fire. It turns out the branch of this humongous tree, and this branch was about1/3rd the same size of the tree, was on it's way down on top of the truck.  It took me a couple of minutes before the sound really freaked me out and I climbed out of the truck.  30 seconds later the branch came down shattering out one of the back windows where I had been laying.  As a result I have troubles sleeping.  I continuously see that evil branch coming down.  I'm not 100% sure, but I think that experience might have given me post traumatic stress disorder.
     Moving probably none of you knew until this very moment, I am a college student.  At 27 it seems pretty insane to be chasing an English Degree in Creative Writing.  I've been at this college since Fall of 2011. This semester I'm getting ready to apply for transfer. It's been taking a lot out of me, I can't seem to focus.
     Focus. I've been under a lot of financial and emotional stress.  This of course has to do with issues with my dad.  It's got me so irritated and upset some days that I just get lost in something fun instead of getting work done. So why didn't I come back to write?
     Well in addition to being a writer, I do lots of other things believe it or not.  I'm an avid reader, Wizard of MTG and an amazing artist.  I like to make things with my hands constantly. It makes me feel very accomplished.
     Well, now that you probably already left, finding me quite boring...oh you're still here?  Then proceed onto the story update below.  Thanks for baring with me.  Enjoy the update.

Previous Phoenix updates:
1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7

      I just couldn’t wrap my mind around the idea that I’d never again be beneath those sheets, holding her warm body and drawing lines with my fingertips across the tattoo on her back of a viper, a simple black and white.  What was it that she said to me before we made love for the last time?  Why couldn’t I remember something so simple?  Something about…drat. I couldn’t remember.  I could remember every tone of her voice, but not the syllables her lips formed.
      When I got to her apartment she was all riled up.  Ranting and raving about something, I can’t remember.


  1. First of all, best wishes to you - you have such perseverance, which I admire! The snippet today was fascinating, really intriguing the character can't remember the words...

  2. I agree with Veronica, your character's memories and lack of do intrigue.

    BTW, please forgive me for butting in, but your "rant" sounds like the beginnings of a great story (can be fictionalized) - hope one day you will be able to turn it into one and see much success. In the meanwhile, stay strong and wishing you better times ahead..

  3. You have me wondering how long it has been, and why it is he can't remember.